Here it is, 10:45pm, and I'm wide awake!...The windows are open (no a/c) and the gentle--VERY cool breeze is blowing the curtains....
No scooter horns (unlike HCMC)and very few automobiles are on the road. We just had a wonderful dinner across the street again. Angela and I have talked all night long about what I might expect. Tanner may HATE me when we load up on the van for the 7 plus hour drive back to HCMC. His bag is packed for the long drive back. Toys CHECK! Clothes CHECK! Diapers CHECK! all available meds CHECK! Bottles CHECK!
I'm ready!...I think. I really don't know what to expect. All I'm told is, "don't worry...all is ok!" Ummmm ok then! How am I not to worry? I'm flexible...I understand that---but what am I to expect from here on out?
Ok, so I'm kind of freaking the heck out here...but it's ok, because after tomorrow, Tanner will be in his momma's arms...safe and sound (probably a little freaked out himself--but nonetheless, in his momma's arms!)
I hope I'm not sounding negative here. I'm out of sorts! Jet lag? Home Sick? who know. I'm so out of sorts. and I'm sure it's only going to get worse when I get home.
On a lighter note, I absolutely LOVED meeting his caregivers! Of course no one could understand one another. We got pictures with one of his caregivers, and I was able to 'speak' with another ( I think she was deaf) but EVERYONE loves Tanner. People were driving up on their scooters and coming over to him and saying, "........Hai Hai Hai....." Men, women, and children kept coming over to him and kissing and loving on him, kissing his cheeks....and he kept smiling at everyone he came in contact with. He seems very inquisitve, and lovey to everyone!
*sigh*
So, I better get to sleep (like that's going to happen.)
Tomorrow's THE day!
Monday, October 6, 2008
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Of course you're freaked out! Tomorrow is the day you've been working and waiting for all this time! Just breathe!! I truly believe everything is going to be just fine. Soon you will be home in your own space with your son.
Don't worry about freaking out. You are bound to be nervous and not know what to expect. It will be ok and you will handle anything that comes your way. He will be yours tomorrow. It will seem surreal for a while, but it will be a wonderful day. The ride back to HCMC won't be so bad. All you will be thinking about will be Tanner.
Freaking out is normal. So just enjoy it. Hopefully you're sound asleep now (since it's 5:30am in Vietnam). This is the day you've dreamed about for months. Yay!!! I'm so happy for you. Can't wait to hear more about your adventure.
Blessings!
Oh, I remember that feeling! Of course, by now the G&R is done and you are safely back in HCMC. Pheew! The best thing I can say is that this transition, though miraculous and beautiful, can be a bit trying. Don't forget to do what you need for yourself. It's ok to cry. Alot. It's ok if he doesn't like you. It's ok if things aren't what you expected. It's ok because he is your son and you are his mother, and together you will work out whatever comes your way. You'll get the hang of it and everything will be wonderful.
Enjoy Vietnam! You'll miss it when you are home.
Can't wait to see you at the airport, though a few more pics between now and then would be great! : )
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