The Diary of a Crazy Woman

Yep, you read that right! C-R-A-Z-Y! At least that's how I feel!

The week started out simple enough.--Work, Sleep, Work again...
Tuesday was grand...I was able to attend the 'every now and then' Mom's Luncheon at my agency! I had a wonderful time! Afterwards, I went to a Vietmom's house. That was the start of a dizzily crazy week! Ohhh, it wasn't my visit at her house that made me crazy! As I was leaving, she let me borrow her HUGE suitcases that she had taken to Vietnam, just a few mere weeks ago. I was so excited! "Finally," I thought to myself, "I can see where I stand in the way of space for everything that I plan on taking to Vietnam!" Now, mind you, that trip, as much as I'd like to believe is realistically several months away! (I'm hoping October!!!) So, I rushed home, rolled up my sleeves, and dumped EVERYTHING out on the nursery floor. "Oh my hell!!!," I gasped as I surveyed the monsterous pile of 'stuff' on the floor. "Where do I begin? Do I start at the donations for the orphanage? or the gifts I bought for the nannies/staff?" I made a wee little place for me to sit. and began gently placing each item in it's proper spot. After an hour, the FIRST of the two suitcases was COMPLETELY full! Full, as in OVER 50 lbs! "oh my hell" I screamed this time! So, being my usual OCD self, I had to dump it all out, open the SECOND suitcase, and regroup! Finally, I gathered myself and said, "ENOUGH!!"
To bed I went, restless sleep once again...weird dreams! I even woke myself up saying, "Noooooooooo that's NOT where that belongs!!!!" What the crap?
So, Day 2 of said OCD fit. I came home from a VERY long day at work, didn't even bother rolling up my sleeves, but instead dove in head first!---now, I'm not certifiably crazy, just well...those that have been in my boat or in similar situations know that craziness comes with the territory!
So, I again placed each item in (what I thought) was the proper place. I threw open Tanner's closet and carefully chose each outfit for each day ( someone please PLEASE, I beg you, please help me!) "These shoes can be worn with this and this and this" and "These shoes can go with that!" "Ok, got this medicine, and this medicine...ohhhhhhhhh gonna need some Pepto for me hmmmm and probably some Immodium....coughdrops...CHECK! Vitamins...CHECK! teething tablets, CHECK!! CHECK!!" The end of Day 2....Crying Sobs=3times...Temper Tantrums due to OCDness=1!
Day 3...work work work...in between times, I decided to write out my Will and Testament. Wrong thing to do in such an emotional time...but since I'm NOT one to procrastinate...it HAD to be done. Let's just get this out of the way, right now...Crying Sobs=4 (before I left work!!) I had NO IDEA that doing the whole Will and Testament thing would be so emotionally draining....I couldn't even talk about it. It was the thought of me leaving Tanner unexpectedly.--Leaving him even before I meet the little man. *sigh* Nope, not gonna cry....On a very pleasant note, a patient of mine had crochet the most beautiful baby blanket for Tanner...and yes, I cried. (does anyone see a pattern here? I'm a sensitive crybaby!)
Needless to say, I went home and crashed. Didn't sleep well, but nonetheless, I was in a vegetative state the majority of the night...eyes open, but still...very very still...thoughts racing through my mind. (Am I nuts?)
Today, well, it consisted of having people witnessing my signature and then having each copy of said Will, notarized. (Can we say, Joy?)
So, to make a super boring and rather long story short...This weekend deserves complete and utter nothingness. No Will, No packing (by the way, I'm completely packed, EXCEPT for MY clothes...but that's only gonna take a few minutes...so, I can get the email any second...really, To the Powers that be: go ahead and feel free to email me and put me out of this misery!!!)
This is gonna be a lazy weekend. I need it! For my sanity! ... and the sanity of those that are near and dear to me!!